I used to think I was under spiritual attack. My peace was gone, my focus shattered, and God felt a million miles away. I’d pray, read my Bible, and still feel utterly empty. I blamed everything and everyone, convinced some external force was against me. But then, a harsh truth hit me: I wasn't under spiritual attack; I was just addicted to orgasm. My soul wasn't "confused"—it was drowning in lust. Let me break down what I’ve learned, because maybe, just maybe, you're experiencing something similar. The Hidden Costs of Casual Connections I realized I kept opening "portals" with women who carried their own burdens. Every woman I slept with gave me more than just pleasure; I took on her pain, her trauma, her curses. That’s why my peace vanished. I wasn’t broken—I was bound. It wasn't about love or connection; it was about fleeting satisfaction that left a lasting, negative imprint. The Emptiness of Self-Gratification I’d masturbate daily, ca...